Urgh

I know this is my first post in a while but whatever. Its going to be a depressed one.

Why can't i be rich?

I cant afford to go on any trip whatsoever that would change my life and make me want to learn spanish all over again. i cant afford my borderline-cool-phone, and will soon be demoted back to a trackphone, i cant afford even afford to ask for things because i know that there is so much pressure on my parents to make me feel like i can afford stuff.

and im pissed about it